silence: i can't go on like this
have lost all motivation
me: chchey!!
silence: so want a break
me: whats wrong now?!!
silence: sigh
me: yeah thats the problem with our generation
the general apathy towards life and ambitions
silence: but i am not like this
me: hehehe
so we all say
silence: usually i'm fired to do things
me: you just became postmodern
silence: now i don't feel like reading what i have to anymnore
me: yes yes
welcome to the world
silence: want to read some literature, study for NET and live somewhere else without much worries for sometime
me: hmmm
wokay wokay
do it then
silence: and it is also in my birthcard that from 21-5 of this year to 07-12, i 'll have a time of restlessness and moving away
me: hahhaha!!
then drift along a while
anyway i am off
silence: i should, but towards the better :)
me: hehehe
theres nothing is better and all anyway
its all just pretensions
make-belief
see i ll give and analogy
its just like smelling a flower while walking along a road
it smelt good
but fact is you were just breathing
and it happened to smell nice
silence: see, i was not online
so come again with the analogy
me: and you would have breathed anyway and have to breathe anyway
shit
see the good things in life
are like smelling a flower while walking along a road
it smells nice
but eventually it was just that you were taking a breath
and it happened to smell nice
and whether it smelt nice or not
you woulda taken a breath and moreover couldnta helped but take a breath
thats all
life is all about breathing
in and out
silence: ya, i believe in the cosmic connection which exists between your nose, the flower and the moment u decided/involuntarily took the breath
me: thats all there is to it
nothing of that sort
if the cosmic connection willed that you were not to smell the rose
it wouldnt make any difference at all
you prolly wouldnta even noticed there was a rose worth smelling by the road
silence: exactly
so, that is imp
me: in no way at all
if you were oblivious to the smell of the rose
the rose never existed for you
silence: then there is no rose
me: and you go on in life
silence: and how do we become oblivious?
me: breathing as you go
silence: karma, my son, karma!!
me: hehhee!!
it just depends on why we chose that path
and that might have a little to do with our past
but hardly ever
it has more to do with our future
if you think about it
coz we always choose paths to reach somewhere faster
or take our time and delay the trrp
silence: but our idea of what is fast, and how fast it will be in a life that is at the same time snail paced and blowing away in centuries, that is karmic, my son
me: we always do have the faculty of choice
but that doesnt mean we may get run over by a bus coz we did some incomprehendable mistake in our past
based on a choice
the universe is far more random and chaotic than that
if there exists an order, it is that of chaos
we wont see that in everyday events
but put everything that happens around together
and thats the picture you get
and hence no better or worse
silence: but who controls our choice? where in the oceans shall w unravel the real mystery of agency? who decides for us? the well perceiving faculty, oh, aren't they just five in an unknown zillins? or is it the time that decides for us? the time that comes to us like a srtorm or as a child's cry, as a hushed up moan oin bed, or as the silent naughty half look of a girl by the way?
me: hehehe
silence: can i copy this chat?
me: hehehe
yeah yeah
hahhaa!!
now you ve thrown me off track
yeah lemme get back to it
aah
so time...
and how we perceive and react
well when we are placed in certain social and ethical circumstances
some choices are made for us already
the choice of the system
the system that tries to find order in the whole entity of existence
hehehe
yeah
its a futile human attempt
and if time seems to decide what we want in life
that is because the systme wants us to believe that is what we want at that particular moment in time
and so the next question naturally would be
why should we look for order
silence: no no
me: then??
silence: what i said is not that we decide to suit the ytime, but the time decides for us
me: as in time brings forth events that determine our life??
silence: also
me: hmmm
that again is a futile human attempt to find order
cause time in itself is arbitrary
silence: exactly
me: and we create time in order to dispell our fear
silence: so, being a karmic, as our conversation proves, is a way of being pomo :)
me: how come?!
hehhee
silence: bcoz, both tend to be taking away metanarratives from human effort
in fact, even slightly hinting at the randomness of time
me: karma hints at anything but the randomness of time
silence: that's true
me: the only randomness of time advocated by kramonc theory is that
silence: but we wil tweak it a bit for concensus :)
me: i ll strike you but you dunno when
hehehe
wokay wokay let that be then
anyway lemme wind up
saying
we exist coz we do
we live just coz we have already breathed the next breath
silence: against ourt own fears, i'l add
me: philosophical pseudometaphorical discourses make me very hungry
metaphysical that is
i really have to go off now
lunch awaits
bye now
see you later
silence: don't call it pseudo!!!
me: hehehe!!
okay okay
will be redundant then i see!!
hhahaa!!
silence: :)
me: bye now!!
silence: bbye
:)
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