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Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Betraying the cause.

Causality
The relationship of cause and effect
The principle that nothing can happen without being caused

There was blood seeping
Tracing lines along the grains in the wood
And marking out the cracks in the floorboards.
Blood spewing out of his half-open mouth
And his bleeding nose.
His eyes were half-closed.
Half-open.
Staring aimlessly,
Trying to make meaning out of the rust patterns drawn into the bottom of the refrigerator door.
Trying in vain to substantiate life
And place pins, and hold it down,
And dissect its viscera
As he lay, dissected himself,
In a pool of blood.

His blood.
The blood of the cause.
The high-octane fuel that once charged
That turbocharged mind of his
Which identified, improvised, illustrated, illuminated.
No doubt he started it.
His mind was the manifesto,
And here lay, bread and wine,
And a thousand delusions which escaped the confining quotations
And puzzling citations within that psychical text.
Now with the knife staved deep in his chest,
It still was not easy.
Cutting a shredded line through his heart and his left lung.
Blood oozed out.
Filling the chest cavity.
Pulmonary oedema.
His lungs compressed, filling up with blood themselves.
As he choked on the high-octane fuel
That kept spilling though his breath now.

The blood wrote histories on the ground.
Stories he meant to achieve.
Walk in front of them, at the head of the procession.
His chest bared open to bullets
And cannon-fire.
Wrote tales of forgotten beds
And forsaken love.
The story of a cause
And how it made sense of the world to him.
How he tried to make them see it.
All they heard was a mad man's ravings.
All they saw was a path paved to their grave.

The knife plunged into his heart.
Soft and warm; and red with blood.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Words on a String

This might as well have been the title of my blog. Some randomness tied together with the flagrant hope of bringing out some amount of cohesion and comprehension. Trying to make sense out of this petty madness we all live and call life. Funky shite, i tell you...
So here goes my first post!! Major achievement, if you ask me... And this one's all about why i love living through this madness. Why i love trying to make sense and failing time and again and yet hopefully going for another try.
I love life because its beautiful. Its got that poignant beauty of thinks that wont last for long, like snowflakes and mayflies... Things that melt away or disappear, like a whiff of fancy.
I love life because we alone can live ours. How much ever people try to take it away from us, we can still hold it within our little hands and hold it out to the sun. Warm it up a bit. Or hide it in our mitts when it gets cold and wintry.
I love life, most of all, because every moment in it is unique. Every moment you live belongs to yourself 'cause you gave birth to it. And it would certainly not have existed without you, or outside of you. Life and all its moments stay with you and within you. Prolly its the only thing that very truly belongs to you.
I love life because i can still feel, touch, hear, taste, see and live all that is around me.
I love life 'cause i can smile, laugh, cry, hide my tears, and whisper my fears.
I love life because it hold a promise. A promise you can work out by yourself. I love life 'cause it has a past, a present and a future.
I love life because i try time and again to make sense outta it and never succeed.
So every once in a while, lean back. Take in a breath of air. Breathe in... Breathe out... Lick your lips and taste the air... Its a beautiful world, and every inch and every moment of it belongs to you...
The Semi-Charmed kind of Life we lead... Its funny... It sad... Its happy... Its mad... and above all its always worth living and loving...